I remember when we used to have joy in our lives
As I walked into city hall today, I heard live music. It was a cello and a flute, warming up for something.
I almost didn’t recognize it. I haven’t heard live music since February. I have not heard live music in over six months.
It brought me to tears.
We have lost so much.
We have lost so much because of the poor leadership of this country.
We have lost over 200,000 lives, which is the biggest tragedy of all.
We have lost businesses. People have lost their livelihoods.
We have lost hellos and goodbyes and celebrations and laments and our summer and joy and collective sorrow and we have lost everything. EVERYTHING.
And it did not have to be this way.
Mr T and I are very lucky. I know that.
But even with that, even with not getting sick or with having already lost my job for non-covid reasons so I can’t blame that on the current soon to be ex I hope president, even with being lucky, we did not attend the wedding of the daughter of one of my best friends. We watched it on zoom.
We did not attend the funeral of my friend who died in July.
We did not go to my uncle’s funeral this week – we watched it on zoom.
We did not go to a single concert this summer.
We did not go to a single festival.
We did not go to the state fair.
We will not go to our college class reunion.
We have seen one set of friends once – we sat in our driveway.
The husband of my friend who died in July came over last night and we sat in the driveway and it was lovely, but it was cold. We are not going to be able to do that much longer. We don’t dare risk having people indoors. I am volunteering at city hall, which means I am around a lot of people, so I don’t want to expose anyone else.
Our friends T and S, from college, called us last night. They saw something I had written on facebook and were laughing about it. T and S are in Chicago right now, getting ready to sell their house their. We had talked about visiting them the next time they were in town and in the excitement of the moment, decided we would go there this weekend.
We realized it would be the first visit with college friends since last winter.
And then this morning, we realized we couldn’t go to their house, cook dinner, and spend the night. We couldn’t expose them to my city hall germs. We couldn’t do it. We won’t go after all.
I know it’s a small thing and that many people are suffering greatly.
But at the base, all of us are suffering at least this much – we all lost our summer. We lost our celebrations. We lost graduations. We lost weddings. We lost the 4th of July. We lost our funerals. We lost visiting our friends and family.
And we lost if because the president of this country knew what was going on and lied to us and refused to lead.
And, as I write this, I see that Ruth Bader Ginsberg has died.
We are losing everything.
Vote. Vote. Vote.